Ramblings

Lately,I've been feeling so indifferent. I don't know if its because I lack sleep,or could it be because I am missing someone,could it be because im stressed with the workload,could it be because im broke. Should I blame the weather?

I'm back to being myself the grandiose whiner of all time. I am deeply engaged in a feeling that somehow I need to outperform but then mediocrity sips me like a quicksand,pulling me down and eating me whole.

I become so melancholic when i think about what could've beens ,what might have beens ,my thoughts are wandering.

I've never been so despondent over something, I managed and survived life's adversities. I took risks, I was able to overcome them all. What difference is this that im feeling today? I know it wont be easy, sometimes I can be all the way to the top or at some point, I am down there..sulking again.

Lets talk about Paranoia,I can't seem to understand why people,some people become so insensitive.

Some people,are too damned getting into my nerves.

here's the thing,if you cant say anything nice....keep your mouth shut bitch! I hate it when people try to be nice,but then again they are the one's who talk behind your back...don't think im not. I can be really nice, I am a good friend but I am the worst enemy...like what I used to say, I can forgive but I can never forget. So please,spare me with the cute talks,i ain't buying that..don't preach to me about religion,I have my own faith...and what's with Christians?
Stop quoting about David and all the disciples and the prophets.

I loved you as my friend,but lately you have become somebody I dont even know,with all the influences,I missed you though,but I don't know who to trust anymore...