Dying Young

repost from facebook on Sunday, December 26, 2010 at 2:25pm

There's something about death that is comforting. The thought that you could die tomorrow frees you to appreciate your life now.

I need more sex, OK? Before I die I wanna taste everyone in the world. You don't think i'm serious do you?

If you obey all the rules you miss all the fun. Yeah,pretty much. If you're normal,you can go ahead and follow the rules,but you wont go to jail if you do something bad,you can be naughty and nice. I'm a good girl gone bad? nah,im good at being bad...really now?

I don't get angry very often. I lose my temper rarely. And when I do, there's always a legitimate cause. Like one day, I just went on being so grumpy. Well,its because I'm human,and just one of those days when I just feel like the world is closing in on me.

Normally I have a great lightness of being. I take things in a very happy, amused way,like what one of my friends said "we're not used to seeing you that way"..I'm sorry again for acting that way...I felt like a retard,crying with really no apparent reason. I am in a limbo. So caught up and maybe overwhelmed with all that's happening now.

I was totally bothered by something, I know I shouldn't have acted that way.

Its nice to just smile and pretend that everything is ok,but sometimes,as human as I am,I also feel bad at times.

I don't normally bring my problems outside but then again,some things are better left off to simmer in the spun of the moment then dwell on it and sulk,coz that won't get me nowhere.

Now,about this articles title,we all have our fears,I am not afraid of dying. But,if I die,I want it to be short and simple,like please take me in my sleep. I don't want to die in an accident, or I don't want to die in any disease,where I still need to suffer in denial or in pure misery. I once read a note,much like this one,I don't want to commit any fallacy or in no way do I want to be a plaigarist of some sort. This is like my version, a somewhat repost from my original article,way back in highschool. "The Art of Dying" and "My Death Wish", i wasn't able to post it on my blogspot because i had it hidden, I know the pages of my notebook are all in yellow, tattered and covered with dust,and the edges were all faded.

I know its a bit morbid to talk about death, but can we cheat death? If its your time to go, then go ahead. There is more to life than death. You will have the chance to be with the Master. And if you look back at your life, should you change anything at all? Me, If I had to live my life over,it would still be the same coz I don't want to miss the time when I had the chance to meet the people who are in my life now,who made a difference, who made me a better person and some who made me less of a person for the mistakes. Life and Death, i often talk about it in my posts. I talk about life in general,love,betrayal,forgiveness,sex and any thing under the sun that I fancy.

So when I die, I want to keep on living. Like how's that? and What do i suppose to mean?

If I die now, I don't want to see anybody crying, I want everybody to be happy that somehow, I can rest.

I don't want them to mourn for me. I don't want them to talk ill of me, I don't want them to pity me.

I don't need to be patronized by anybody, I just want to be remembered as someone who puts a smile on their faces, some one who could light up a room, someone who even in my rudest and harsh comments, they still love me.

I , who is somehow very naive and foolish. I am someone who is emotional about a lot of things.

I want to be remembered as someone who is playful and FUN.